As I dwelt in my dormitory room day after day, something started to go wrong inside my head, as if a tick latched onto it and would not let go. My mind became dark and clouded. Negativity started infecting my brain and I assumed the worst in anyone that I came across in DC. I glared at anyone that made eye contact. I starved myself, eating on average one meal a day, reasoning that I don't deserve to eat. Friends seemed to mock me with their happy faces on social media. At some point I went to look at myself in the mirror, only to find a skeletal image glaring meanly back at me. I became foreign to myself.
Fast forward a few years. Desperately seeking solace, I started watching a lot of movies my junior year to get through the last stretch. One of them was Fight Club.
Everything about the movie was relatable to my world. I felt as if I was watching my own dramatized version of my life as Jack hit the worst of rock bottoms. Jack's struggle for redemption was both painful and inspiring to watch. There were a lot of quotes that I found to be relatable:
But it was Tyler Durdan, who gave me all the inspiration I needed. I watched the movie again and again, sometimes watching clips of quotes to process it all in my head. I found new energy in having someone like Tyler Durdan yelling at me that I have to pick myself up... that life is too short... that even experiences such as this will strengthen me in ways I did not know...
Thank you Tyler, thank you for this.
Here are some of the quotes that are most important to me:
